Wednesday, July 18

Heartbreak.

I am flipping out a little. We're spending all this week getting the house ready for the packers. I am starting to feel really good about that part, although I still think we have too much stuff, but nothing a yardsale can't solve on the other side. 

The thing is, last night we went to eat at our favorite restaurant in Bernkastle. I told the owner that we would be leaving for the US in three weeks and he asked for how long? I said, "Forever." 

He looked like he was about to cry. He grabbed me and gave me a huge hug and said, "No! You all can't leave me here alone!"

Man, that was hard. I almost burst into tears. I said we would come visit, and I fully intend to, but who knows when. Every other week we share our time and smiles there. We have brought every visiting friend there, much of our family, new friends from the base... 

An Indian restaurant is going to break me. 

Today I can't catch my breath quite right. I feel like there is no way I'm going to survive leaving here, our home. In the past few months I've been pushing it away and have planned on going without looking back, but I have a feeling it's going to be much, much harder than that. 

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We were able to get out to Daun Wildpark once more before leaving. The baby boar are so cute (but not the mommas, haha!). And the deer were sure putting on a show for us!




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Just two other things,  a tattoo plan....


And new best friends:


Johnny sits on the couch and calls, "Luckie! Luckie!" until he comes and jumps on his lap. Then he pets the crap outta him. Super cute. Not bad for a dog we almost re-homed because he was so nasty to the baby, I'm so glad to see this!! It definitely unbreaks my heart. <3

6 comments:

  1. I bawled like a baby when I read this post... I did my best to numb myself before I left... I didn't go to any going away parties, except the one ya'll threw for us at the Indian restaurant!! Which Ivan and I still salivate over every time we think of Indian food. It hurts even more here because I feel like NC is 100% different than our beautiful, peaceful, open minded Germany!! But there's always Space A... which I just might have to go back so I won't feel so homesick for our first home!! I have a feeling though that You will LOVE LOVE LOVE Tuscon and it will feel like home much faster than you think!!!

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    1. It's so bittersweet! So much of what we loved about this place was our friends, who are 98% goo g or gone by now, so that really makes it a little easier. But the land, the river, the castles, the food... man. It's tough, as you so well know!

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  2. I am so sorry, Sweetheart. I wish I could be there to help in some way.
    Thankfully, now whenever I need a pick-me-up during my day, I can come to your blog and see the picture of J and Luckie. Talk about heart melting!!
    Please let me know if there is anything I can help you with for the move. Love you all!!
    <3 Bethany

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  3. How sweet... and sorry the move is so difficult. :( Hopefully it will feel right once you're on the other side of it.♥

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    1. Thank you- hopefully things will start to fall into plae soon! :)

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